Too Deep

There is nothing, there is no one, there’s no colour, there’s no light

And my feelings don’t cast shadows, and my heartbeat’s lost in tides;

There’s no sound to pierce or wound me, there’s nobody I could hurt

There is nothing to hold onto – not a particle of dirt

 

I am black, and cold and solid; I am blue and fluid and calm

I don’t think, I am not though of; I’m alive although I’ve drowned

My thick sorrow turns to rapture; my old scars all bleed and laugh

I’m dissolving, vaguely conscious of one thing: it’s not enough

 

Ghosts of numbers robbed of meaning by the abyss that I face

Drift away into oblivion: they can’t measure all this space

Where there’s nothing, where there’s no one, where I’m just another drop;

You… I wish I didn’t love you – because then I wouldn’t stop

2 thoughts on “Too Deep

  1. “You… I wish I didn’t love you – because then I wouldn’t stop”

    For that one line alone, I am glad I paused and read a few of your poems.

    That is just pure and beautiful.

  2. Thank you so much! It ought to be pure – the poem is dedicated to my mother :). It would hurt her if I didn’t remind myself to stop every time I’m tempted not to.

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