The Hangman Game

Is this, today – tomorrow?

Or just another day of yesterday?

My coffee smells no different,

The cloud outside is not a different shade of gray

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It hasn’t moved, it hasn’t changed

As if someone played hangman in the sky

And left the puzzle hanging, partly solved,

Giving me food for thought and an excuse to cry

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I cannot feel I’m growing older

The numbing high of similarities again invades my veins,

Convincing me that I’ll exist like this forever

And I believe, and I don’t care – and it is all the same

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Can I make this, today – into tomorrow?

And not another version of a thousand days I’ve known

If I endeavour to resolve the hangman’s puzzle

Will I escape his heavy cloud that wouldn’t let me grow?

Поздняя Осень

Ранним утром на морозе

Я просила снег растаять,

И зиму – уйти на север,

Солнце бледное оставив

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И боса, и неодета

Вмерзла я корнями в землю;

Пусть до следующего лета

Кошки на душе задремлют

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Пусть мои опилят ветки

Под еловые игрушки,

Пусть в глазах моих, как в стеклах,

Блещут брызги от хлопушек

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А весной, еще холодной,

Пусть дождями заливает

Мою рощу, что сереет

Под ворон кричащих стаей

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Ранним утром на морозе

Я просила снег растаять,

И зиму – уйти на север,

Меня осени оставив

Versatile Blogger

Yesterday one of the subscribers to my blog gave me a very flattering gift – a Versatile Blogger Award. It came as a surprise and an encouragement just when I was struggling to write and failing miserably. The problem is that I’ve been in the same place for too long and I simply lack the imagination of a true writer to keep my creativity alive: I need to actually breathe different air, see different faces, eat different food etc to write something remotely interesting. Excuses, exuses…

Back to the award. It’s not all cheering – there are rules to follow. Firstly, whenever someone gives you something nice, the common practice is to accept it and say thank you! Secondly, I must provide a link to the award itself:

http://growingyoungereachday.files.wordpress.com/2011/04/versatile-blogger.jpg

And here’s Val Erde, the blogger who passed it to me:

http://absurdoldbird.wordpress.com/2011/04/30/versatile-blogger

Next, I must tell the world – the small part of it which is still reading this – seven things about me, myself and I.

  1. I’m really tempted to say that I’m a versatile blogger but I’m afraid that wouldn’t be quite true. So instead of ‘versatile’ I’ll say ‘vegan’.
  2. My most vivid memory of happiness is the memory of being at the depth of over 100 meters of seawater for the first time;
  3. I have been trying to write my first novel for years now and I just… can’t;
  4. I attended a bullfighting school while working on an ethics dissertation;
  5. The Sixth Symphony in the name of my blog refers to my favourite piece of music – Tchaikovsky’s last symphony;
  6. I like to listen to people;
  7. I don’t like to talk about myself, so I’m glad this part is over. Phew!

Finally, I need to list fifteen blogs written by the new Versatile Bloggers. Essentially, these are just some of my favourite blogs – interesting, different and written by wonderful, versatile human beings:

Poetry:

  1. http://briarcat.wordpress.com/
  2. http://slpmartin.wordpress.com/
  3. http://atomsofstars.wordpress.com/
  4. http://stillfugue.com/
  5. http://crosescribe.wordpress.com/
  6. http://moonlitpoetic.wordpress.com/
  7. http://bodhirose.wordpress.com/
  8. http://nihilisticpoetry.com/
  9. http://soniacookbroen.com/
  10. http://fayaoyagi.wordpress.com/

Other Goodness:

  1. http://carldagostino.wordpress.com/ – never fails to make me smile
  2. http://notesfromtheboss.wordpress.com/ – for the love of post-it notes;
  3. http://voyagetimes.com/ – keeps the travel bug alive;
  4. http://occupationwriter.wordpress.com/  – reminds me I should be writing more (and better);
  5. http://mividavegan.wordpress.com/ – feeds me :);

Looks like that’s it. Hope I didn’t forget to mention anything important. Again, many thanks to Val for passing me the award, and thus, reminding me that I’m supposed to be writing. Right now.