I have to ask you
Not to ask me
If it hurts –
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Pain has become
Less of a feeling
And more of mere word;
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It walks me home,
It sleeps with me
And holds my hand
/
Keeping at bay
The creeping fear
That I have nothing left;
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You say I seem
To love my pain;
I wish that this was true;
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What’s true’s that all I ever wanted
Hurt, challenged,
Broke or bruised me;
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You see, I wasn’t
Made to live
The dreams of greater men,
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And this was why
I had to make
A habit out of pain