Fragile

for A. S.

My tears could fill an ocean,

My wrath could shake the Earth,

And yet, before you I sit

As quiet as a ghost;

/

I cannot let a breath escape

My chest that you make hurt,

Nor can I move the body

Which you make feel like dirt;

/

I wonder how you’ve come here

And if you’ll ever leave…

No, I have not forgotten

Although, I did forgive;

/

I know I would destroy you

If I so much as blinked,

Because you look so fragile

Weighed down by years of guilt;

/

I have no wish to break you,

So I refuse to speak

The words you came to beg for;

This silence’s my last gift

The Night Fires

Upon a bridge between two blazing fires

I stand and watch the heavy river flow;

One fire soars like hope into the open night skies,

The other one burns low, licking life off the earth;

/

I stand and know that I must pick a side;

I wish it was, but it is no longer my choice:

The fire ceremony, like the elements’ song, or the funeral pyre

The soulful prayer or the ultimate acknowledgment of loss…

/

Suspended halfway over running waters,

I will remind myself I’ve said my honest prayers,

And they were pleas for a path to freedom and to courage;

I see that path now: how and where it goes…

/

I took one step, so I will take another,

Walk all the way from twilight, and into the dark;

I fear, I fear it so intensely,

That on my fear I am becoming drunk;

/

And with each step my heart is beating faster,

And with each breath my being overflows with dread;

Closing my eyes I turn into a flame,

With ashes dancing;

/

I’m she, who dwells inside the fire,

She who shines more the more she burns

I Promise, Part III

I won’t return

Ever;

These are the very last words you will hear

From me;

I’m sorry

That they took so long to say;

/

Don’t fear

That I

Will one day break into your life,

Followed by

My friends –

Cold ghosts and ruthless hurricanes;

/

Let’s call today ‘forever’,

So you don’t have to wait for me

Another

Moment,

And I don’t have to look back

Once I’ve left;

/

You know, I am

Freedom,

I’m not something to wait for

But something

To chase,

And you could never step away from home;

/

Thank you for keeping

Your promise,

For saving in my heart a little something

Human,

I promise, while it lives,

I’ll call it by your name;

/

Forgive

My cruelty;

Forget each time I died, and yet came back

To you,

Looking each time

More like Death herself;

/

I won’t return

Ever;

This really is the last time

That our fingers and heartbeats

Intertwine

Before my wings must carry me

/

Forever

To the sky;

I Promise, Part I: https://sixthsymph.com/2012/06/27/i-promise/

I Promise, Part II: https://sixthsymph.com/2013/05/26/i-promise-part-ii/