I lost myself in your embrace
That with each passing day grows tighter;
My bones are breaking, my heart fails;
So close you hold me,
Your light burns like scorching heat;
It blinds me, and I see it as impenetrable darkness;
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I am so tired of my fears,
I am exhausted by my weakness,
I hate it that I am so often sorry
And that I rarely know what I am seeing;
When you have crushed me into naught,
And thus accepted my surrender
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The chaos that I am of thoughts of feelings
Will rest at last inside the deepest of black holes;
Then, only you and I will know
How in your arms I’d kicked, and begged and cursed
Mourning my self –
My only loss
Sounds like an overwhelming love.
It is! The poem is dedicated to a god.