The Ghost

Rise as if nothing had changed,
As if you still had all your powers;
Smile with the courage and grace,
Which once made you worthy of love;
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Walk, as if you knew the way,
Thanking the loved ones you’re leaving forever:
They needn’t know that you will not emerge
From the storm, which will swallow you whole;
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Now, not tomorrow, not a moment later;
Now! Brace yourself, take a breath, then, the step
Into the whirlwind of all you’ve been dreading:
There’s nowhere to hide and nowhere else to go;
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Look in the eyes of demons from your nightmares,
Feel their claws brush against your bare nerves;
Watch them dig out your heart and cut into pieces
The treasures you lived for, honored and adored;
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Scream if you must, here nobody could hear you –
Hell is as private a place as they come,
But writhing in pain, please, remember, remember
The faces of those, who loved you, whom you loved;
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And then, rise as if nothing had changed –
It’s behind you, the eye of the storm;
You cannot go back; you stand alone
You have said your good-byes, ghost

My Dear Hades

I had a dream that life was all around me

Its color – blue, its texture – soft and warm

And all my being drowned in quiet wonder,

I felt my mind at peace; I turned into a storm

 

Yet, where I stand awake there is no color

The eyes staring at me are made of glass and cold

The endlessly unwinding roads, the swarm of voices

Lead nowhere, speak of nothing – are the world

 

Or is this hell? And one could never live here?

How dare one stay alive among the dead?

One couldn’t breathe the poison of oblivion

But there is nothing here to breathe instead

 

My mind is gone; it’s diving in the abyss

It dug out, filled with love and hid in time

I do not want it back; I don’t believe I need it:

I am in hell and I don’t want to think of why