I Promise, Part III

I won’t return

Ever;

These are the very last words you will hear

From me;

I’m sorry

That they took so long to say;

/

Don’t fear

That I

Will one day break into your life,

Followed by

My friends –

Cold ghosts and ruthless hurricanes;

/

Let’s call today ‘forever’,

So you don’t have to wait for me

Another

Moment,

And I don’t have to look back

Once I’ve left;

/

You know, I am

Freedom,

I’m not something to wait for

But something

To chase,

And you could never step away from home;

/

Thank you for keeping

Your promise,

For saving in my heart a little something

Human,

I promise, while it lives,

I’ll call it by your name;

/

Forgive

My cruelty;

Forget each time I died, and yet came back

To you,

Looking each time

More like Death herself;

/

I won’t return

Ever;

This really is the last time

That our fingers and heartbeats

Intertwine

Before my wings must carry me

/

Forever

To the sky;

I Promise, Part I: https://sixthsymph.com/2012/06/27/i-promise/

I Promise, Part II: https://sixthsymph.com/2013/05/26/i-promise-part-ii/

I Promise, Part II

Have you returned

Ever

Or is this shell before me

But an empty

Vessel,

Which waves of time

Have carried to the shore?

/

In the storms

You’ve weathered

Have you been able to preserve

From certain

Drowning

Your heart – your precious gift,

Your heavy burden?

/

Sleeping with Death

Nightly

I fear you may have found

In her calm eyes

The peace and quiet, which

Unlike me,

Would never let you go?

/

Can you even

Hear me,

Standing before me as you are:

Callously smiling

At questions, which to you

Must sound

Pathetic and naïve?

/

I listen,

I listen…

And only wish I had for you

A soothing answer:

Can’t say the words

You wait and want

From me:

/

I have returned,

Truly,

As much of me, that is,

As there remains,

But, surely, much it is not

And none of it

Is good

/

No ropes, no anchors,

No sails

And no one at the helm

To steer it,

That’s me, the vessel, which at last

Has found this beautiful,

Long-dreamed-of port

/

The vessel’s vaults

Are all empty;

Not even rats now lurk across

Its rotten insides,

Where no one enters, 

Save for winds

And ghosts

/

Its cannons

Are quiet

But painful to behold,

Like memories,

Too wild and full-blooded

To ever loose themselves

Amongst the rest

/

Forgive me for coming

Back:

I only did because

When I had left you, I promised

I would return,

And you promised 

To wait

/

Yes,

I remember:

‘I promise to return,’ you said,

And I replied that

I would wait for you forever;

The words, the love, the hope

The good intentions…

/

All – wet gunpowder in the stores

Of life;

Small rescue rafts, too light

For real seas;

I prayed for you – you know? – through every day,

Shuddered in fear – you hear? – through every night

While I’ve been waiting –

Yes, I am waiting still

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The original ‘I Promise’ is here: https://sixthsymph.com/2012/06/27/i-promise/

I Promise

‘Will you return

Ever?

Or is this time the last time

That I touch

Your wings, light as death,

Before you soar

Again

Into the sky?’

/

‘I will return 

Always:

As long as you remember me,

I’ll cross

The endless

Expanse of space,

And sit with you,

And dream – ‘

/

‘I promise to return!’

/

‘And if you promise to return,

Then, I will wait

For you

Forever’

To Christophe M.